But not you...

So I have to say I'm kinda really glad we got our pool, b/c I really think that getting into it with the kids and swimming around is helping to keep losing weight.. I'm not only running still ( 3 times last week), but now I have added a little swimming into it through out the week, which is helping with the summer food I'm eating (cookout stuff)... Nothing else has really changed, so I wanted to post a poem that I like..

Let others lead small lives,
But not you.
Let others argue over small things,
But not you.
Let others cry over small hurts,
But not you.
Let others leave their future in someones else's hands,
But not you.

Embrace your own future and let us all be weight happy together..

Getting There

I'm starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel.. This last week I knew I had to do something to finally get me over the hump of staying at 150, so I did my four times of running this week (still only 2 miles each time) and I drank more water this week to see if that would help.. My eating was still the same, and we only had one night out to eat this week.. Mexican for my son's graduation from preschool. We did go to a pool party/cookout this week too, but I watched my portions really closely... I can tell this summer is going to be hard with losing weight.. My goal is to at least lose something each week if only .2 Pd's, so I keep up the desire to be weight happy.. which I have to admit I'm starting to feel it.. I feel better about how my clothes look on me and I feel good about being in a bathing suit in front of people.. At the pool party I witnessed my former self through another mom.. I asked her why she wasn't in her bathing suit and she said, "I will let the skinny moms do the swimming." Now I have to say this mom herself is not overweight, but I remember feeling the way she does about myself.. It is so funny how as women we always see ourselves much bigger then others see us... I'm not sure if I ever let my weight stop me from doing anything, but I can say I remember not always being comfortable in every situation when I was bigger... My mom asked me last week to say the first thing I thought of when she asked me, "What was my first reason for wanting to lose weight," and I said (which surprised me) "I don't want to be the fat mom." so after I thought about it, I told her that growing up with a skinny mom (she has always been 110 Pd's) always made me feel good about having friends over to swim or go to the beach with her.. I felt she was healthy, happy and so much fun.. I want my kids to feel that way with me.. I know I would have probably felt this way about my mother even if she was a bigger women, but I only know about having the pretty, skinny mom that everyone liked growing up.. My mom did say to me that there was never a option to her not being skinny and that her being happy was a combo of being weight happy, my father and having good kids.. I knew as I got older that my mom had a fear of being overweight, but she never once let on this feeling when I was growing up.. Now I have to say I never had weight issues until after HS.. we are a big family of sports players, so being in shape was something we always were in my house growing up.. Then I got skinny again while on the police force then I had kids and my weight down spiraled again and that is where I am today.. I could so write a book (tee heee).. Positive thought is to just try to stay on track this summer and not lose site of the goal to have a lifetime of being weight happy.. Lets all be weight happy together...

So Close...

Well almost to the 140's but not there yet.. errrr... but I have to admit I know why.. With the holidays I just didn't think it was going to happen.. We were eating all weekend and into yesterday, but we had a great time, so I'm not that upset about not getting there just yet.. I did lose a little and that is really all that matters anyway.. I did work out last week, but only twice, so I know I need to get back into the 4 days a week running, so I can lose some of those extra calories through out the day.. Yesterday my hubby went swimming with my cell phone in his pocket and I was a little upset and what did I do, I started looking in the cabinets to eat something junky.. I'm not sure why that habit still comes up sometimes, but I noticed what I was doing and closed the cabinet, but I did turn around and there was Oreo cookies on the counter and I had one, but at least only one.. lol.. It's funny how when my emotions are out of whack I go for food to make myself feel better.. errr.. It was nice to know I can now catch myself, when before I started this I would have just grabbed something and ate and ate until I was satisfied.. Well onto a new week.. Positive thought for the week.. "There comes a time when we simply have to face the challenges in our lives and stop backing down.." Lets all be weight happy together..

Hanging in there

So I am starting to wonder if I'm about to hit a plateau.. I was so good about my eating this week and even exercised 4 days this week and played softball (joined a team).. My water intake has not been good for a while now b/c I can't stand to drink it, but maybe I need to go back to trying that again to get me over this hump... I was even not feeling good this week, so my food intake was even lower, so I have to say I'm stumped at only losing 1.2 pounds.. errr I know I can look back and be proud of how far I've come in 12 weeks, but when you are in the moment of your last week and can't understand what went wrong it's hard to see past, right now, but I know I have to see the whole picture.. I have to admit I'm also frustrated about my clothes issues right now too.. It is so wonderful to lose this weight, but now all my jeans, Capri's and shorts are giving me a saggy butt look, which is not cute on someone who has no butt to begin with and really no funds to keep updating her clothes.. so I just have to deal with it until I reach the weight I will stay at and then I will slowly get clothes I fit in nicely... I know this should be the last of my worries, but how you look in your clothes, is how you feel about your body that day.. I have to admit that when people notice my weight loss it does help me to stay motivated, b/c as a women I'm not seeing what other people are, so I need that little reassurance that yes my body does look thinner and my hard work it working.. Positive note for the week is be happy in the moment and enjoy the ride ( I will take my own advice and embrace this week).. Lets all be weight happy together..

Patience better than pride

"Finishing is better than starting. Patience is better than pride." I always have to keep this saying in the back of my mind, b/c I could so easily get discouraged on how slow the weight loss process is. I wish I could close my eyes and wake up looking like the girls I see in my US magazine, but hey I know this is not realistic and most likely either is their pics.. lol.. Today my girlfriend wanted to buy a size that fit her but would fit her better if she lost a little more weight and I said to her, "are you going to lose the weight" and she looked at me and said, "there is no option, I have to lose the weight, why else am I doing this", so I told her to buy the smaller pair b/c to me she had the right attitude and she was going to lose the weight. It really is if your head is in the game you will lose the weight... I feel sometimes I have to play mind games with myself in order to keep wanting to lose the weight... b/c I feel me losing the weight is not a health issue but a want issue, so to me it's harder to stick with something you want then something you HAVE to do.. and maybe this is not the hardest part, b/c maybe once I get to a comfortable weight then how hard is it going to be to maintain that weight.. It's all a struggle, but one in the end I think will be well worth it.. Make weight loss a priority in your life and not something you hang on the wall of what you once looked like or wish you could look like.. Don't be that person, be the person who wants something and goes after it.. BE THE WEIGHT LOSS... so we can all be weight happy together..

Stay True

I think b/c I didn't lose much last week that last week caught up to me and helped for this week.. It's funny how the body works.. I only ran 2 times last week, but I was outside helping my hubby build our new deck and cutting grass, so I was still getting lots of exercise.. I ate really light the four days before this weekend, b/c I knew it was Mother's Day weekend and I would eat a lot (which I did)..but like I have said in the past that weight loss is based on a week, so I think even if you have some days that are heavy then the light days will balance those out.. It is nice to lose weight, but the skin under my arms is more noticeable and the fact that I have lost a lot in my boobs isn't a good thing b/c they get a little droopy when you lose weight in them (guess I need a push up bra).. lol, .. I should have never gained all that weight in the first place.. So I have to wonder how at one point I was at my ideal weight and then I just passed it and kept gaining w/out even a second thought.. Why was I so oblivious to what I was doing???? This journey is still very hard, but it is still easier then when I started this, so if you want to lose weight then start today, b/c waiting just makes the process longer.. Positive thought, Stay true to yourself and don't allow outside judgements to make you second guess the journey you are on.. Lets all be weight happy together..

The First 20

Well I did finally reach 20 pd's, whoo hoo but my weight loss this week was less then desirable... Now I do have to say I ate bad this week and only worked out 2 times this past week.. I was a bad girl (dairy queen blizzard).. lol but I did enjoy it.. lol So I'm back on track and worked out yesterday and plan on running again tomorrow... It seems as the weather gets hotter it is becoming harder to run.. It is harder to breath which makes me discouraged and makes me want to slow down and walk.. errr but I'm going to push through and prevail... I also did not journal at all last week, so I have to get back in the habit.. I guess we all fall off the wagon sometimes.. Positive thought for the week, "Keep advancing; do not stop, do not turn back, do not turn from the straight road." lets all be weight happy together..